It’s important to be able to face yourself and that’s why it’s in your best interest to trust your intuition and listen to yourself about what you need to do. Sometimes this may cause distance and friction between you and your environment but at the end of the day each person faces themself, not their parents, colleagues or their peers.
from the internet perspective, we all seem to believe everyone’s life is just that much better than ours. A lot of things are going great for me at the moment in my career and my art but I’m realizing it’s the other stuff that’s going to be a lot harder than the art part. It’s weird in a way I’m living my dream only to realize that it’s not living the dream that’s the hard part but it’s maintaining some connection to reality in the other areas of your life… the parts that will be there no matter how everything is going “professionally.” In many ways, the real parts. Sometimes I wonder why it’s easier for me to paint a picture than it is to take the chance of letting someone into my life.
My friend put it like this once…Sometimes you climb to this place on a mountain… and what happens when you can’t climb up anymore? Maybe it’s a peak… or maybe it’s a blocked passage. It didn’t work… or it ended. Either way you can’t keep going there. All you can do is just climb down…
You ever feel like you’ve been up there forever? Trying and doing the same old thing? And maybe it used to work, but now it doesn’t anymore? Your pride won’t let you leave… you just want to keep trying to find a way through or to stop there…but it’s just not time anytime.
Sometimes you have to walk back down the mountain and find another way. It’s just how it is. It’s life. Take a second to see where you’ve gone and just… find another way. Take the lessons, have the memory… and find a new adventure.
It takes courage to come down because it feels like going backwards. But this is the humility in life… to return to being a student always.
I need to find something new.