I felt sad today because I went to pray for the first time in a long time and realized I didn’t know who I was praying to. I used to think I did but I’m not so sure now.

I felt faithless. Then through a series of divine points I found faith again through the form of forgiveness. Someone gave me a light. It showed me how hard I’ve been on myself for a time now. Feeling like I needed to have it all figured out and to be perfect. It’s something that’s hard to see sometimes because I’m myself on here when I write and do things online, but I’m my inward life I still fear being imperfect so much.

Life without love is a cold place. I’m seeing we can hold that light on within ourselves, but sometimes it’s better when someone can hold it for you.